imagine youre six years old again, and you have icecream.. when youre that young , icecream is awesome, and it solves all your problems (temporarily, anyway). so as a child with icecream, youre obviously over the moon.. until you get bumped by someone who knows you have icecream. accident or not, you got bumped, and now your icecream lies on the floor. your icecream is what makes you happy, yet now its on the floor.. unable to be eaten. so you can *see* your happiness, but you cant *experience* it.. its no longer in your hands.

thats how i feel... i have every reason to be happy.. and i was. for once, i had no problems, i had nothing to worry about.. so thanks, person who bumped me, and took my source of joy from me.

so now, i see my happiness, but i cant feel it, cause i just got cut down. and now im not happy anymore. thanks alot. and you know yourself i dont get much happiness. yes, im hyper, but i always have something negative to worry about. NOW I ACTUALLY DONT. BUT NO. you steal it from me. thanks.

i just hate it when someone poops your party. yeah, okay, poop my party if you have a legit reason. dont just fucking poop it. yes, ive had someone poop my party before, and yes, its upsetting. but goddamn.

someone pooping my party is like someone telling me something i want to hear, and then saying 'nah. not really' its just cruel. its like kicking someone when theyre down. whatever. the party pooper isnt worth it. and for those who are wondering, its not you.

im still wondering, though... if this party pooper isnt worth it, why am i still upset? meh. not anymore.. WOOH WOOH. gah. no can fake.

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tram fell into my trap again.. but this time it was andrew i think.. tram and i established that it is no longer 'fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice shame on me' but it is now 'fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me, fool me thrice, shame on tram.. fool me four times....' the poor girl.

i am now happy. and i feel like sining the aeroplane jelly song.. probs shouldnt though =P

laters, fatties! =)