Monday, August 29, 2011

Day 05 – A time you thought about ending your own life

There have been so many so many times where I have thought about ending my own life... quite pathetic, isn't it?

Well, I remember the last time that I thought that my life was somehow [totally not] no longer worth living... it was really strange, actually...

To this day, I'm still not sure why I wanted to/thought about ending my life... see, I had everything I wanted... I was practically happy!

I had/have everything
- I was finally doing the degree I'd wanted to for years
- My parents and I had no issues [nothing strange, really]
- I wasn't completely blanking in any of my lectures i.e. I had *some* idea of what was going on
- Friends and I were all good
- I had/have a boyfriend who loves me to bits and would do absolutely anything for me


so.. I had everything... yet I still felt somehow incomplete =S I was feeling so... down... I remember telling David that there was no point in life if I had so much, yet was so unhappy.. even though I wasn't going to end my life, I felt absolutely miserable... it lasted for two weeks, and I only wanted to end my life right towards the end of the 2 week period.

I guess if you're reading this, then you still sort of care about what I have to say [ie NOONEEEEEEEEEE xD], thus you'd probably want to know how I got out of this massive ditch I'd gotten myself into xD

I got out of this ditch literally as fast as I had entered it =S I was talking to Leon, and I hadn't actually intended on telling him about the shit I was in, but I somehow did, and... I don't know... talking to him sort of made me realise that I was being unhappy over absolutely nothing! And I literally snapped out of it =)

Sunday, August 28, 2011

30 day challenge! I've finally finished one xD

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 10 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Day 06- Favorite super hero and why


Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

Someone/something that has the biggest impact on me? To be honest, I don’t really know =S Like, I learn from everyone, but no-one has a crazy-big impact on me, I think =/

Oh, but like parents? Yeah... definitely!


Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why

Well, this month ends in... 3 days-ish? [I’m not too sure what month it is now, and how many days there are x.x]

My short-term goals are always to be up to date with my readings [YEAH, RIGHT >_>], and erm... I don’t know... to go to the gym as often as possible xD [going tomorrow morn =D]


Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

Hrm... I don’t know, actually... Umm.. maybe getting up to date with readings [printing, not reading xD], and just finally organising my notes xD speaking of which, there is a whole pile of lecture notes sitting on my bed, waiting to be organised x.x


Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

Happy – I DONT KNOWWWWWWWWWWW

Sad – I Bruise Easily – Natasha Bedingfield

Bored – whatever song I feel like xD

Hyped – ditto!

Mad – ditto!

Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends


Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

HEH. Well.. clearly this isn’t tumblr... so I guess I’ll answer in terms of blogspot? [wow. Incredibly lame sounding xD]

Guess everyone had a blog, so I was like *ZOMG MUST MAKE BLOG* so yeah. I’m so darned fascinating, aren’t I?! =D


Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

To my dear friend

What happened, and whose fault is it? To be honest, that’s all I really want to know from you, because clearly neither of us seem to care that we’re not what we used to be anymore. I don’t even want us to go back to where we left off...

We seem to have our own group of friends, and even though we have a tonne of mutual friends, I don’t think I’ll be seeing much of you in the future.

Sometimes I wish it’d stay that way.

Sorry.


Day 14- A picture of you and your family

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Coming Home – Diddy
Crawl – Chris Brown
Smile – Avril Lavigne
Stand Up for Love – Destiny’s Child
I Kissed a Girl – Katy Perry
Goodbye – Avril Lavigne
Right Where I Belong – Good Charlotte
Billionaire – Glee cover
One of the Boys – Katy Perry
Addicted – Kelly Clarkson

Day 16- Another picture of yourself


Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

Okay, I know this sounds insane, but I’d want to swap lives with Michael. I want to know what it feels like to love the way he loves me, and to know if he’s actually retarded or not for loving me =P That, and I just want to see what it’s like to be on the other end of the relationship =)


Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

Graduate -> job -> marry -> kids

Also, to travel heaps, and just learn more about the place we live in =)


Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

I get called mc ... but I think that one’s somewhat self-explanatory and obvious

I sometimes get called minhchoochee/minhchiwi/minhchoopypoopy by wendy and david... I think it was cause of the time in year 8 [?] when jankowski called me minhchm ==’ and then wendy and david went berserk and made all these retarded nicknames for me

Chickenwing – hanson started calling me that for some reason... was quite weird.


Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

HEH. Too young to know ;P


Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy


Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else

Okay, well...
- I know a lot of random stuff
- I’m inappropriately awkward xD
- I don’t care what people think about me, as long as I have fun
- I’m sneaky *taps nose* ;P
- I’m loud and obnoxious

Day 23- Something you crave for a lot


In terms of...? food? Or people? Or...?


Well, in terms of food, there are so many things I crave for [seriously, you’d think I was preggers! ><]

- Pizza
- Calamari rings
- Sushi
- Takoyaki
- Cake
- Donut
- Steak

Day 24- A letter to your parents

Hey Guys

I really don’t know what to say to you because there are so many things I wish I could tell you or that I wish you’d know without me having to tell you.

I guess I should start off with saying thank you for bringing me into this world, and raising me so well. Sure, I’m a bit of stuff up here and there, but I think you did a pretty good job =)

Also, sorry for being a brat – that’ll teach you for only having one kid!!

You know, there’s not much I have to say to you guys except that no matter what, I love you guys heaps, and you guys will always come first =) [except when I get married... then you guys will come a super-close second!]

Your FAVOURITEST daughter in the whole wide world

Minh Chau


Day 25- What I would find in your bag

- tissues
- house keys
- a lighter
- pen, pacer, rubber
- umbrella
- two glass cases
- note pad
- pikachu hat
- wallet
- chewing gum
- wrappers from lollies, chocolate bars, gum, etc xD

Day 26- What you think about your friends

I think it’s awesome that even though I don’t see them all the time, we manage to keep the bond [or maybe I think we manage to keep the bond =S] and everything is the same when we meet up again after a few weeks of them being away from me xD


They’ve been there for me when I was down, and even though I was a pain in the arse, they stood by me, and we’re still strong =) We’ve obviously had our ups and downs, but we manage to pull through cause seriously, I get upset over the dumbest things...


We’re all great together because we find the simplest things so amusing, and we can laugh at the same thing over and over again [ask Wendy how often I’ve laughed at her falling over in year 7 xD]


Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge

I’M DOING THIS *NOW* BECAUSE I STARTED IT CENTURIES AGO AND NEVER FINISHED IT BECAUSE BLOGGING LOST ITS APPEAL!! ><


Day 28- A picture of you last year and now - how have you changed since then?


On my 18th birthday:

On my 19th birthday:


How have I changed...? Well, with the obvious, I am now no longer single *YAY!*, and I’m also doing the course I want to at uni!

Also, my group of friends has changed, some have walked in, some have walked out, and some have done both.


I also feel older [no shit!], and somewhat more... I don’t know.. I sometimes feel a little less hyper [or maybe I’m just saying that now because I’m a little tired xD]


Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned


I have learnt... That...


I’m sure I’ve learnt *something*, but I don’t know if any of it is of real importance in this context xD I mean, I’ve learnt that criticising kids is good for their performance, but seriously – who reading this [if anyone even reads this anymore] wants to know that? =P


Day 30- Who are you?


I am MinhChau. I am not defined by anyone around me. Sure, I am different around different people [schizophrenic, anyone?], but who I am doesn’t change. I. AM. AWESOME.


Saturday, August 27, 2011

Day04 - your views on religion

so... i haven't really been blogging much, and I don't actually think anyone even reads my blog anymore, but I'm going to blog just for the sake of me having something to look back on 5 years later and be "OHMYGOD! I REMEMBER THIS!!!" with my awesome memories [which i seem to have a lot of xD]

30 day challenge. my views on religion.

i have no views on religion. you believe what you want, i believe what i want, as long as you dont try and impose it on me, its ay-okay =)