ITS SO CUTE!! *swoons*

I want you to be the first person I wake up to,
and the last person I sleep to,
so I can dream of us. . .
and make these dreams a real day.

oh dear. jenny's retarded.

I had this weird dream two days ago.. it sort of reminded me of 'day of the triffids'.. this shatty book little made us read in year9.. about something crashing, and making everyone blind, except for this one guy, who had his eyes bandaged, so he was the only one who could see after the thing crashed or something like that.

anyway, my dream was something like that, but more awesome, and you could probably get past the first page if it was a book.. CAUSE ITS NOT EVEN THAT MUCH XD

for some reason, ive noticed that my dreams are set either in the modern-days, or like, way way back.. like, a bazillion years ago ==' so, in my dream.. we were back a few decades.. imagine the setting of the adventures of merlin

i suppose its like a small village, then.. where everyone knows everyone else, and stuff like that.. so. lemme get to the point of my funky dream XD

its just a normal day in this village, and i was outside, and all of a sudden, these lava-lamp shaped balloon things the size of hot air balloons sort of just rise out of the ground [idk how it happened.. dreams just work like that XD], and everyone just stops, and we've all got this *omg holy crap. this cant be right* look on our faces.. and these balloon things.. theyre emitting lots of light,.. so its like a big ass torch rising out of the ground, and its slowly rising into the sky, and to us, it only meant one thing.. that they were going to blow up, and the world was going to end.

there was the typical scurrying about, trying to get home to be with family and stuff like that, but for some reason, i had this sort of flash in my head, sort of like a deja-vu moment, and it was this image of me reading a book, and it said that i was going to survive, and so were a small bunch of others.. and i knew one of the guys that were gonna survive.

we all knew when the balloons were going to explode, and ive no idea why, but we had all decided to gather in the streets with out families and hold hands and all that emotional crap =P so, there we were, at night, and the balloons were in the sky, emitting all this light, and we're all prepared to die, and.. nothing happens. false alarm.. like WHUT?!

so we were all relieved and such, but we still knew when the second time wouldve been.. its like there was some sort of timer, that told us how long we had left =/

second time round, it was less intense, yet at the same time, it was more intense... and just when the second explosion was about to happen, i woke up. HOW LAME WAS THAT?! D= i wanted to see what would happen and then we couldve totally repopulated the world and stuff! XD

so thats my weird-ass dream =)

this is EPIC!

havent blogged in a while cause ive been bombarded with assessments [its funny though, cause i dont even study for them >_>], and not that much has happened. well, stuff has happened, but i doubt there was anything worthy. but little bits here and there have happened *blah blah blah*

ANYWAY. the other day, on monday, i was in matthews with jamie, and she was eating.. then
jamie: i need to burp
mc: ok *starts patting jamie on the back*
i stopped patting her.. THEN
mc: *BUUURRRPPP*

we started cracking up, and i looked up to see this guy in front of me laughing, and he gave me the thumbs up! it was so embarassing, but at the same time, it was so damn funny!


oh yeah. yesterday was such an awesome day =) we were walking back from maccas, and instead of going in the gate near the childcare centre, we walked down barker street, and we went through this entrance id never noticed, and there was this taxi there, and the driver and passenger stopped us, and asked us where webster building was, and i told them the general direction of where it was, and i noticed that there was a guidedog in the car, and yeah.. the passenger was visually impaired

we decided to help the guy out, because well, its hard enough getting around when you can see, let alone not being able to see! so we took him to the webster building [OMG HIS DOG WAS ADORABLE!], and he talked to us about our degrees and stuff =) turns out, he was auditioning for something!

AND THEN. that arvo, on the train, there was a gorgeous black labby guide dog!! was SO BIG. the floor was wet from its drool =P heheh was so cute!


hrm.. what else has happened..? *racks brain* OH SHIT. i remembered. then forgot >_>

oh yeah.. me and little ben [who seriously isnt little anymore] were talking about built guys, i think.. and maybe the gym, then we talked about how incredibly tall tony is...
ben: tony says he goes to the gym, but i dont know what he does there
TOTALLY GOOD POINT!!!! what the hell DOES that kid do at teh gym? i mean, he hasnt buffed up, and all.. and well.. hes still as squishy as hes always been! SO WHAT DOES HE DO AT THE GYM?!?!

so. today, was meant to meet up with two guys for group work, and only one showed up, and hes an international student.. anyway [i actually dont know his name ><]

int kid: is this your first semester?
mc: nope, 2nd
int kid: your english is very good
mc: *thinks OH SHIT* im local..
int kid: oh! sorry!

and the poor thing got all embarrassed! XD

also andrew's birthday today! he had a girly mango cake of some sort with 'i love you' ribbon all over it =)

hanson fails. again.

you know what i dont get? how youre expected to know how someone feels. what i mean is.. if you feel shit, how do you let someone know? do you say 'hey dude, i feel like shit.. blah blah'? or do you not? because if you tell someone.. youd obviously feel like youre taking their time, and you think they might not really want to hear it, because honestly, sometimes i feel that i couldnt care less. so do you tell someone how you feel? or do you just wait for someone to realise somethings up, and then ask you how you are? that way, you know youre not wasting their time, cause they asked you [unless they were just being polite OR asking without actually having any meaning behind it]

so one point is.. noone is going to know how youre feeling unless you tell them, right? but then if youre always bothered by something, you feel like youre burdening someone with your stuff. i mean, i feel that sometimes im just babbling and the other person just listens because they sort of have to. so i dont talk to many people. thats why i blog. i sort of just rant to myself, and anyone who cares can talk to me =)

but then. youll never know how someones feeling unless you ask them. obviously there are people who dont want to talk about their feelings because they feel its not important or its a waste of time to the other person, so they wouldnt just start talking about it, right? but then, if you ask someone, you feel like youre pushing the other person into confiding to you.

both ways of letting another person how you feel is sorta shat. i mean, i babble to people some times, but i feel like im just giving them a load of shit that they have to listen to when they dont even give a rats arse. but then, on the other hand, i dont ask people how they feel, because i know for a fact that im always there if anyone wants to talk, and when people feel comfortable, theyd talk to me, right?

so. im totally confused. and tired. i vote we just bottle in our feelings, and explode and die.

its sad how this world is becoming such a shit hole.