I know that this world has changed us, now we're nothing more than strangers... but do you think about me ever?

I hate to admit this, but I haven't felt this lonely in a long long time. Like, really really lonely. I don't know why I feel this way, but I can't help this at all.

I was talking to big Vincent yesterday, and it's funny, that him, of all people [no offence, dude] asked me this




He noticed, out of everyone. So did Cheryl Anne. And I barely talk to these people. Deep down, I'm ashamed and embarrassed that those who I thought were my friends didn't notice. Seriously, Vincent asked me if I was ok, and even told me to think positive. Shame on you, guys. Maybe you're not worth it afterall.

But on a better note, thanks to those of you who actually take time to talk to or listen to me. It means a lot to me =)

BANANANANANASSSS!!!

hehehe

I dont know if anyones noticed lately, but these last few weeks have been one hell of a shit hole for me. It's not just uni, it's everything. Everything is getting to me. I've been on edge, I've been up and down, but mostly I've been down.

Everything that happens is somehow affecting me. I'm taking everything personally, whether it was intended that way or not. I feel like I'm stuck in this sort of situation where I can't move on - I'm hanging on to what I've already got, because I'm afraid to test the waters. I'm happy with what I've got, because it's all that I've got. I wonder if I'm making sense right now.

But recently, I've slowly weaned myself off what I've got, and I'm testing the new waters - like a little kid trying new foods, because coco-pops aren't the only awesome food out there. I've decided that what I thought I had was good enough for me *isn't* good enough for me. Or maybe I'm not good enough for it anymore. Who knows.


I hate the fact that I'm holding on to stuff when I thought that I'd already let it go ages ago. It hurts so much, and I don't know what to do about it. I can't even confront my feelings, because I'm not even sure how I feel. I think it's affecting me more than it should. It shouldn't even matter to me. BUT WHY DOES IT MATTER?!?!?!

I need to learn to let go. But I think the thing with me, is that I let go, but I never forget the feelings involved with whatever it was. So I suppose in a way, I'm still holding on. I can't forget. I don't forget. I wish life was easier.




BTW. Anyone want to find some awesome charity, and help out with me? I'm thinking of a homeless shelter, and feeding hungry hobos *cue mc singing HUNGRY HUNGRY HO-BOS!!!! and getting death-stared at by someone walking by*

also. anyone who lives nearby wanna go bike riding? Jenny's bike died, and she won't get it fixed [she mentioned something about vincent ;)]

yes. main thing is the charity. I really want to get involved with charities, and doing some work to help people who aren't as fortunate as I am =)

hrm...

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what happened to us?

Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

Phong Nha-Ke Bang park is now the fifth UNESCO recognised site in Viet Nam after Ha Long Bay, the imperial city of Hue, the ancient quarter of Hoi An and the My Son historical site.

Phong Nha-Ke Bang national park, located to the north of the majestic Truong Son range in central Quang Binh province, is one of the world's two largest limestone regions.

The over 200,000 ha of parkland includes beautiful limestone formations, grottoes and caves, and boasts lush forestland covering 95 percent of the park area.

The area is considered a paradise for researchers and explorers of grottoes and caves, and Vietnamese and British scientists have so far surveyed 20 with a total length of 70km. Of them, 17 are in the Phong Nha area and three in the Ke Bang area.

The Phong Nha cave itself which lends its name to the whole system is probably the most beautiful of all, containing many fascinating rock formations, enchanting visitors with evocative names such as Lion, Fairy Caves, Royal Court and Buddha.

Besides the grotto and cave systems, Phong Nha has the longest underground rivers, the largest caverns and passageways, the widest and prettiest sand banks, and the most astonishing rock formations in the world.

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

HAH. So many habits I wish I didn’t have!! The main ones...? Procrastinating... I am so good at it that I deserve a medal!! >< Swearing, and being so uncouth for a chick xD I swear so much, and I also use the word “gay”, and “retard” too much... I probably shouldn’t... I keep saying I’ll try to stop, but it never works =/ GOTTA TRY HARDER, I GUESS! xD

i get pissed/upset too easily. im too sensitive.

the smallest things can tick me off. anyone who didnt know that probably doesnt need to. anyone who does.. they dont need an explanation.

enough said.

GODDAMN. CANT WATCH BONES NOW CAUSE WENDY HAS MY EXTERNAL HD!! RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE RAGE

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

if i could have, i wouldve have included so much more.. but i love yous all nevertheless! =)

PHWOAR THEYRE SO HOT!!!

LOLOLOLOLOLOL

Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name

So... the meaning behind my blog name? hehehe ive already explained this when i changed it from e-equals-mc-squared.blogspot.com to mc-supersonic.blogspot.com!!

anyway.. it came from my uber friend amanda nguyen =D we played tennis for sport years ago, and i used to bring my tennis balls cause the school ones were shat. anywhos, she wrote on them, and just had mcSupersonic on the ball, and i thought that was cool, and is the reason ive taken that and made it my blog name =)

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 10 interesting facts about yourself

yeah. i love this pic. its so awesome =)

15 things that will make you go 'OH REALLY' [or 'nah duh' or 'i knew that!' amongst other reactions]

1. i am oh so stubborn. oh yes. im so stubborn, i make mules look.. non-stubborn? my main attitude is 'i dont give a shit what happens' [unless it involves me running around doing dumb things. THEN i care]

2. i actually care more than id like to admit. see? stubborn. unwilling to admit the truth! i care a lot. ive just learnt to lower my expectations so that i dont get hurt in the process.

3. i keep people at arm's length. there are certain things i will never tell anyone. i choose not to tell anyone because i feel like noone will understand my point of view or just simply they wont believe me because they havent experienced it.

4. i will forgive, but i wont forget. ask anyone. i remember most of people's stupid moments, or i remember most of my grudges. deep down, i still hold them. i cant move on. i have trouble letting go of things that have hurt me. i just want to know why. whyd it happen? why me? whatd i do?

[just realised its 10 INTERESTING facts! sorry guys!]

5. im named after my grandma my aunt. my grandma's name was minh, and my aunt's name is chau. so im minhchau. but even more awesomely, my cousin's name is a combo of her parent's names - hoang + chau -> hoang chau. we have names of princesses from chinese dramas XD

6. in preschool, i got bitten by someone.. a few days later, i bit some other kid on the cheek. win for me? i think so XD

7. a little korean girl in preschool taught me how to tie my shoelaces. i still vaguely remember her showing me all the looping =)

8. i love bambam =)


9. i spend quite a bit of time in lala land. i dont face reality much. i daydream. a lot.

10. if i was filthy rich, and had a big house, id buy 7 electric guitars of the colours of the rainbow, and hang them up. just for decorative purposes. thatd be HOT!

ALSO scabbed from sunny.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 10 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

am i as immature as you think? =P

scabbed from 27yo sunny =P

[X] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[X ] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[] You own a credit/debit card
[] You know how to change the oil in a car
[] You’ve done your own laundry
[X] You can vote in an election
[X] You can cook for yourself
[] You think politics are interesting
TOTAL SO FAR: 4

[] You show up for school late a lot
[] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You’ve never gotten a detention
[] You have forgotten your own birthday
[] You like to take walks by yourself
[X] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[X] You drink caffeine at least once a week
TOTAL SO FAR: 6 LOOKIN GOOD!!!

[X] You know how to do the dishes
[X] You can count 1 to 10 in another language
[ ] When you say you’re going to do something, you do it
[] You can mow the lawn
[ ] You study even when you don’t have to
[] You have hand washed a car before
TOTAL SO FAR: 8

[X] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[X ] You can go to the store without getting something you don’t need
[] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[X] You can type pretty quick
TOTAL SO FAR: 11

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[] You have more bills than you can pay
[X] You have been to the beach
[X] You use the internet every day
[ ] You have been outside of the USA 3 or more times
[X] You make your bed in the morning
TOTAL: 14


YEEEAHH BOYY!!! i JUST made it in to my teens!!! XD hmm.. seems i *am* as immature as you think D=



anywhos. today was RAINING like crazy bananas.

just a really random story today [allen would shake his head if he saw this XD] that may or may not be funny to you, depending on your level of LOGIC [chun would also shake his head if he saw this =P]

so. in q lounge. allens there, amongst other people.. allen takes his sandwich out. have no idea what happened to it, but i turned around, and the following things are visible:

allens sandwich has come apart... ie the top and bottom slices of bread arent together anymore. not only did his sandwich become broken, his gladwrap also sorta EHFLUEIF'd.. what i mean is the glad wrap opened.. so it was sorta just like a sandwich sitting on some gladwrap.

WHAT MAKES THIS HILARIOUS, is that his sandwich fell on the ground.

now THAT is what i call misfortune! his sandwich falls apart, gladwrap stuffs up, and it FALLS ON THE GROUND!

thats my story =)

oh yeah. i also asked michael to marry tram. it was so appropriate though. she was sitting on the ground, he was on a seat, she goes 'Michael...' i butt in, and i said 'will you marry her?' IT WAS THE PERFECT MOMENT. though, now i think about it.. i didnt hear an answer!!!!

also.. we [me, tram, michael, and andrew] were sort of discussing my AWESOME driving skills, and..

mc to michael: im on my green's, so shut up! youre beneath me!
michael: hahah beneath
mc and andrew: oh god. *groans*
*pause*
michael: oh no. i didnt mean it like that!!
mc: seriously thats the first thing i thought of. the LITERAL meaning! what were you talking about?
michael: youre shorter than me

omg. seriously. it was so hilariously awkward. michael later apologised for making it awkward. but it was hilarious..

twas my day =)

*swoons* love this cover. im in lurrvvveeee

wendy: hey, are birds just birds? or are they like, marsupials

at this moment, i cracked up.

mc: marsupials are pouch animals, noob

blah blah blah, lots of cracking up..

wendy: i always thought marsupials laid eggs


LOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

he is so hot right now!